Damn.

Damn, damn, damn.

Rachel broke up with me. :(

On Monday night she told me that because she was going overseas for such a long time, she wouldn't feel comfortable making a committment to me (and have me waiting for her) unless she was certain I was the one. And she basically said that although she loved me dearly, she just wasn't sure, and so she had to end it.

Obviously I'm crushed. I was having such a wonderful time with her, and hoped that we would continue to be together while she was overseas and then make a start as a proper couple upon her return. But unfortunately, things don't always go as you had planned or hoped. I must admit that I thought we were going to be together a really long time, so the ending of our relationship after just 3 months was a bit of a shock.

Still, we maintain our incredibly close friendship, and she is just a fantastic girl who is going to have a wonderful time overseas, so it's all good. Who knows what the future will bring? Perhaps there'll be a second chance for us when she returns to Melbourne. I'm keeping my mind and heart open to the possibility, as we had such an awesome time together. No fights, just plenty of laughs and great times.

Last weekend we stayed at Balinese Retreat in the Dandenong Ranges and had the most lovely and romantic time together. I highly recommend it!

She flies off on Sunday, and I hope to see her again before then. I'm going to miss her so much. :(

Photos show Balinese Retreat (the bedroom), and some of my tap crew at Rachel's farewell: Elena, Richard and Rach.